I just hmm what am i doing..thinking.. que sera sera..

-Bimbang- (by melly goeslaw)


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Dalam setiap kata yang kau ucap
Bila malam tlah datang
Terkadang ingin ku tulis semua perasaan

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Namun bagiku ini menyiksa
Sejenak ku fikirkan untuk ku benci saja dirimu
Namun sulit ku membenci

Pejamkan mata bila kuingin bernafas lega
Dalam anganku aku berada disatu 
persimpangan jalan yang sulit kupilih

Ku peluk semua indah hidupku
Hikmah yang ku rasa sangat tulus
Ada dan tiada cinta bagiku tak mengapa 
Namun ada yang hilang separuh
Diriku ...........


what am i doing and what am i thinking.. am i doing the right thing.. let it be que sera sera what ever will be will be but what if n how if hmmmm i just don't know just like the lyrics it tells my trembling heart that deep inside me.. bermacam perasaan ada sedey, happy, rindu, sayang, benci, fedup, pening, kosong, sesak, all kinda of feelings mix up my mind  now i just don't know only allah knows what's inside me.. just feel like running away far far away to where a place that nobody knows me the place where i can find peacefull of mind the place without any fools around me the place that i can find my own happiness, my true love, the place where i can dance with the music all day long with the sound of bird chirping..sound of waterfall flowing.. the place i can breathe the place where i can dream on and on ......Here I am and I'm  not really there, smiling faces ever so rare, lets walk in deepest  space just feel like living here just isn't the place and when i cry there isn't a sound and all my feelings cannot be held.....

so till then..




xoxo


ms waniez.......