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Wednesday, June 29, 2011

what a bad day today..special lunch with darling3x

k smpi jer di off itu ini kena buat.. then dpt call from jen asking about status of the OA things.. hmm ok ok my boss tk bg feedback so i can't decide anything still then call my boss she's busy lately.. k then i plk kena wat follow up n do necessary thing hmm masak camnie.. then itu ini itu ini lasts last aku pulak kena bamboo tk psl2 kan feduppppp.. oho and need to be done by hook or by crook by today.. wth.. wtf.... huh.. cool cool jgn stress2 kan tgh in healing process...and time dah nearly 1 pm hmm my special lunch dgn darling2x ku pei, natt n knap.. almost ruining my special and almost spoilt my mood.. bencinyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...

then dpt msg knap the great and 2 lengloi gal waiting for at the krathong restauran.. they console me n tq for the great time.. enjoy sgt.. with delicious dish walaweiiii.. and as usual 3 ladies nie snap sana snap sini.. knap pun terjebak sana.. kami nie allergic dgn kamera haha.. janji happy..so terlupa la sebentar my tension tadi.. cool kan diorang.. yg pasti restauran tu bising dgn suara we all..hmm nk upload pic but all kt dlm camera natt n pei.. me sbb bengang punya psl terus lupa bawa.. actually special lunch to my dear natt yg tinggal just a few days with us dia will pursue her study kt sdney australia.. ala sedey la lately i tk sempat spend time ngan dia.. gonna miss u a lot n alot .. she so so sweet n kind.. sayang sgt kat u natalie.. you're one in a million.. surprised i tgh siapkan smtg for you ..mmuahkks..


back to off tpt kul 2 why u all terkejut yelah that restauran next to my off jer.. sbb tu on the dot we'll be in the off..then pei drop by at my level siap nyanyi "i just come to say i love youuuu" haha disambung oleh ku.. cute n sweet kan dia.. btwn tq babe.. u know why.. actually today all toilet ada masalah n seems my level kurang org so level we all la jadi mangsa haha.. then kesian plak tgk ain handle itu ini sorry dear.. kakak agak sibuk dpt bantu tadi.. si ija , si fiza, si ct ...dtg memeriahkan suasana isyh3x bebudak 4 stooges nie ada jer gelagat diorang.. but btwn thank you sgt.. u all make my day..


hmm masa tgh try to finish my task (yg need to be done by today gak huh) my sis eza call .. adik jom jumpa kejap.. then hmm ok i ckp after i finish my work.. rush up jugak.. so jumpa si adik dan si kakak di satu tpt.. hmm i know she misses me hehe perasan plak.. but betulla kan.. uh my pain dtg blk ala buat hal dpn my sis so terkejut la my sis tgk byk nya ubat.. jeng 3x kantoi sudah.. kena mkn sbb the pain is killing me.. ok sis to be frank i'm not well adik bla100x as usual she hugg me (saya suka time itu) take care dear risau la tgk adik camnie.. ok yr sister nie akan jaga diri n konsisten mkn ubat n be strong.. huhu.. strong la sgt.. insyaallah time will heal me.. then my sis nie mmg la gila kasut gila shopping sama la dgn adik n kakak2xku yg lain..nama pun perempuan kan.. so teman her hmm then i ckp dear sale smpi ujung bulan ogos kan ker mega sale smpt lagi .. jgn rush2 beli byk masa lg lgpun dia pun rushing nk fetch my bro i law...ok till then jumpa lagi.. last but not least.. "FRIEND IN NEED IS A FRIEND INDEED" ...


begitulah kisah my story utk harinie..



--xoxo--:)

Oh Crap I'm late today but.. & story about pakcik cina n indian guy di pagi hari..







my phone ringing.. rinie's no.. then someone knocking my door.. oh crap dah cerah cuaca kt luar.. time 7.40 am lewat lewat lewat... penangan ubat la nie suruh rest n have a beauty sleep sekian lama susah nk tido n sbb tk berapa sihat.. tersengih-sengih my roomate tgk how kelam kabut i am this morning so lompat dah mcm superman from bed.. take shower.. put my lense on.. aisey tk ion baju lagi so grab mana yg sempat.. blue dress, black cardigan, black pants, hmm shawl ok ok multi colour polka.. quickly grab n ion.. simple make up.. i'm done.. within 20 minutes.. express dowhhh.. news on radio traffic jam sana sini.. nama pun KL kan.. ok switch off semua plug hmm looks like nk hujan tutup my sliding door.. hmm tlg tutup window my hsmate azie yelah karang basah pulak bilik dia.. kaja kaja (jalan2xor cepat2x in korean) hehe.. pakai my boots waiting for lift ok alhamdulilah cepat n tk ramai org get into the lift.. if not berzaman la nk smpi kt ground floor ..:p



Putra LRT is coming.. manage to get in.. quite ramai sbb lewat.. k next to right one pakcik cina with black cap n on my left on indian guy not bad looking.. hmm stuck in the middle nk move a bit dah too pack.. k stayput jerlah malas nk psg my mp4.. hmm dah mcm 1 malaysia plak aku rasa indian, malay, chinese.. oklah tuh.. but ada but yer.. i think something wrong with this indian guy n pakcik cina .. indian guys nie ckp sorang babe.. i don't see any earphone ker headset ker yup nothing at all oopsss.. alamak.. kejap dia ckp kuat kejap ckp perlahan kejap senyum seram seyhhhh.. tk berani aku nk tgk dia ...isyh bila la dpt move tpt lain.. and pakcik cina ni pun satu kejap kejap ketawa ha ha ha then ckap leng loi tgk aku then betulkan cap itulah benda n perkataan dia dari stat ke stat.. smpi ke stat kl sentral this pakcik leng loi duduk ha ha ha.. (dlm hati sblm kegilaan dia jadi 150% baiklah dia yg duduk) "its ok uncle" tq leng loi ha ha ha.. kelakar pun ada pakcik cina nie... klu aku pun gelak sama dah 2x5 pulak.. everybody like senyum2 tgk dia.. bila duduk dia ckp sorang pulak memang sah la ada skrew ada longgar sikit.. ok dah smpi masjid jamek next tren plak.. n i reach off dah ujan rintik2 just nice dah kt ground floor.. thumbprint ....8.50 dah lewat nk buat camner kan.. so thats all citer for this morning .. xoxo..:)
















Tuesday, June 28, 2011

I need a break.. but where do i go from here..





I need a break from PEOPLE… people who demand of me, take advantage of me, and lack respect for me. I need a break from those who make false promises… who tell me that I can depend on them… and then constantly let me down.


I need a break from people who think that their own commitments, families, and lives are more important than mine. I need a break from people who take from my life, so that they can live stress-free. I need a break from people who believe I must be obligated… just because I care…



I need a break from expectations of help, when I have no more help to give. I need a break from those who always need me, but turn their heads when I need them. I need a break from those who say they support me… but in truth, are never there for me.


I need a break from a world that doesn’t get me… and the loneliness I feel. I need a break from the constant daily struggle... and a battle that's all uphill. I need a break from people who think I’m crazy… and all the tears I cry. I need a break from feeling like a failure… because I even try...


And honestly... that’s all the break I need at the moment.. huh i need my peacefull of mind....


xoxo...




Me INSOMNIA SLEEP DISORDER..ANXIETY DISORDER..DEPRESSION HUHU SOB SOB

It’s been almost a year i didn’t get my quality sleep.. everyday forcing myself to sleep but at last still awake until 3 to 4 am and fall to sleep after that time… what a tiring day after need to go for work.. but recently alhamdulilah easily can sleep around 12 syukur sgt eventhough lambat juga tu. i’ve seen the dr and get adv from her ok ok i’m not well i’m suffering of my depression, anxiety disorder that cause me of my sleep disorder.. thinking for i’ve gone tru last year huh how suffer i am one by one bump me my health, my personal life, my family and all the mambo jambo thing unseen one .. you know manusia rambut sama hitam hati lain2x betul sgt la pepatah tuh.. life must go on although dalam hati allah jer yang tahu.. but thank to all my beloved family sis, sis in law, bro, nieces n nephews, bff, frens what my life would be without uolss.. love u so so much.. but one thing for sure for those keep busy body talking , gossiping about me , always phd on whatever on my personal life , my work… enuff is enuff.. who u think u are.. try to be at my place my situation baru korang tau… and yg pasti dun try spread rumours this and that … are you oen of my family, bff , cousin definitely nope kan .. tak tau the real story so better keep your mouth shut ohwkay .. or in other word mind your own business..k feel like wanted to write more and more but alamak need to cari baju keje for tomorrow and nak ion lagi takut lewat lagi esok.. kepala pun kejap ok nie kejap tak.. so till for today sayonara.. nanite everyone